April 14, 2015

I'm back!

It's been 4 months, since I've posted something.

But let's be real, it's been awhile since something inspirational hit me.

Inspiration visited yesterday.

I'm a huge advocate for, surround yourself around positive people.

Positive people and their positive ways really help uplift your mood, attitude, and overall self. Why would you not want that?

Unless you are an anti social, anti lover, anti .. I don't know.. just anti anything, I feel like everyone yearns to be around more positivity. (according to spell check, positivity is not a word.)

So the past few months, I've been in a slump.

  • My move to California was very stressful because it was at a time when my uncle and grandfather passed away 
  • The work situation was not as picture perfect as I had hoped it would be 
  • Relationship with Tiger was not moving as picture perfect as I had hoped 
Basically, a lot of things came crashing down and I was very unhappy. I should reiterate, this all happened in the span of .. a year. So scratch "the past few months" it was more like, "the first few months moving to California." 

Did you know, it has almost been a full year since I've moved here?! It's crazy how time flies by so quickly.

My line of work is pretty difficult. And now I know some people would scoff and say, "Yeah right! How difficult can it be to go out and talk to people? Anyone can do that!"

True, anyone can do my job. Honestly, anyone can do anyone's job if they put their minds to it. A cashier can do what I do. But a cashier can also become a doctor.. they have the opportunity to run for president if they want. Anyone can do whatever they want, so why don't they?

Work. Persistence. Dedication.

These 3 things really define how successful anyone will be at any job. And let's be honest, not everyone has that drive and motivation.

Honestly, I thought I had what it took at first and went into this job head on. Like, "Hey guys this is what I do. I am so proud! Let me work with you." I was so young, naive and immature.

After 3 months, I hit my first roadblock. My roadblock was myself questioning my abilities and how strong of a person I was. Sure I can find an easier job, sitting in front of a computer at a desk, doing the same things every single day. But what fun is that? What impact would I have in other people's lives? And what satisfaction would I feel at the end of the day? Honestly? None.

I may be a rookie at my line of work but when I have clients telling me how much more they're at ease after talking and doing work with me, I feel so good inside. Don't get me wrong, this job is not exactly a selfless job. I do it in order to feel a sense of gratitude and satisfaction. But I also do it because when my uncle passed away I saw how much my parents struggled to get his things in order. My uncle did not have anything in place for his passing, and most people in America don't.

Most people don't want to think about the day they pass. They don't want to think about how their families will be affected if anything were to happen to them. That's the norm. "Tomorrow, we'll do something. Let's just live today to the fullest."

How can you live today to the fullest when you have nothing planned out? Tomorrow? There's always going to be a tomorrow. But today, if something were to happen today because you decided to live to the fullest... what would happen to your family?

People don't think about it until something happens to them in their own lives.. like a close friend passes away or they have a close call to death.. or they get diagnosed with some sort of terminal illness. Most of the times, it's too late then. But people don't think about that. They're too busy thinking about the now.

My ramblings lol

Anyways 6 months in, I hit another roadblock: the lack of support from my family in Dallas.

My parents have always wanted me to become a business owner of some sort preferably in the medical field. That obviously entails becoming a doctor of some sort. All of my cousins are doctors or pharmacists.. or.. doctors. We have 1 lawyer in the family, but he's not even pursuing that. So.

I tell my parents over and over again, "This career will open many doors and possibilities for me. Yes, it's hard now but the hard work will pay off. I will be happy in the long run."

Now we're here. It's still taking a long time. But I still stand by what I said, "it's hard now.. but I will be happy in the long run."

But I'm excited because I now have better resources, a stronger leader, and my outlook on this is much more positive. :)

So I'm back! I feel like I've risen from the grave.. haha a whole new energy is filling my veins.

Hope everyone is well. :) Doubt anyone really reads this anymore. haha


January 2, 2015

Adieu - 2014

Dear 2014,

It's been a long year.

It's been a tough year.

But I have grown the most in the past 12 months and I'm loving who I have grown into.

2015 will be a better year. I cannot wait for the opportunities that will come my way.

I cannot wait to prove how much I can do.